115 aND A wAKE uP..........

I have sin in my heart.  
That comes from fear. 
Fear has consumed me
And driven me mad. 
Materialism is life
For America

A steady job,
Is my great reward.
What of my hopes?
What of my dreams?
What of my Family?
Is it what it seems?

To err is human,
But that leaf has grown,
Into a forest,
Of heartaches unknown.
Where do I purchase,
My personal home?

Where are the friends?
Where are the lights?
Where are the butterflies,
That start the night?
How did this come?
Where do I go?
My time has come,
It's time to go.

My brother has heard me if I tell him.  This is our perception of a dream gone by.  One day we will wake to fall asleep again, but in the end, we cannot imagine, the game we've been in.

116 And a Wake Up.......

Here we are.  The Axis has moved against me and is actively seeking my ouster.  The diffu\icult part is the one seeking my ouster is my neighbor.  How do you love your neighbor when they smile to your face and stab you in the back?

What do you do when they swear that they will talk to you face to face if they ever have any issues, but go behind your back and over your head and try to find things to get you in trouble?

What will be, will be. He knows what's coming, not me.  Best to leave things in His hands.

Greg had unexpected expenses and cannot finish unitl NEXT Tuesday, but that happens to everybody and he's commit $600 non-refundable to the purchase of the scooter and the tickets have been bought so I guess that we really have time to spare.  Need to close the gap tho.  I haven't been smoking much for the last week and 1/2.  Perhaps 10 cigarrets (mostly 1/2's) all told.  I want it to stick.  The beer is really nice and relaxin\g though when I can keep it to 3 or less.

Laters!

117 And A Wake Up....

Dear Lord!  This is a job!  I want to write more, but I gotta go to bed, cause I gotta work & I have to spend time with the family.  Thank GOD for Burning Man!  How else will we get a break??

Stay tuned.  Laters!!