DAMN! Over alREADY!!!

WEll. I posted some pics on facebook. .Got my Playa name, Yobi Bear, and had the time of my life!  Youldn't miss again for THE WORLD!!!!

18 and a Wake Up......

Thought I would Give you some pics to ponder.....

The Ruins on Our Lives

Ride that ant Son!

Doldrant Days

May I Stand On Your Head?

We All Have A Wall

Life's Passages

Leaping Through The Ruins of Life

Chaco Canyon.  Amazing!

It's ALL about the BUBBLES MAN!

Big Red Himself, Himself!

21 Days and a Wake Up....

Hope is Dashed

None of he music,
None of the soul,
None of the reality,
Just a Great Big Hole,

The only thing to late to start, is never and I've gotten REALLY good at never.


The Age

The Ghost of Old Age,
Talking to the Youth of My Days,
All about the turning of page,
And all my changing of ways.

When it boils down,
The grease will fly,
And sink into my frown,
All the reasons why.

The searching never ends,
Feet falter on the steps,
The mind lost in the Bends,
Lying on the Alter of Princeps.

Lost, lost ,lost.  In the end, never found.  Found, found, found, from the beginning always bound.


Pyre

Ah, Burning of the Man! 
May the sparkes never land!
The hopes of the desperate make,
A funural pyre and it's wake.

93 Days and a Wake up......

I think you will enjoy this clip:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8p_bAPxIgE

There are many things transorming and changing.  I will keep you up top date.  Just a lull in the life force.  We all have them.  In work, in relationships, in liife.  Just stay tuned.  I feel an epiphany on the horizon.

Here's another decent one.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUqc9pDRsZk

Here is another:

http://www.youtube.com/watch#!v=ArO22tMA7gg&feature=related

95 And A Wake Up.......

Well, we did an inventory of what we have so far and packed it in a large wooden box so that we will be somewhat ready when the time comes. 

This is what we have:

1st Aid Kit
6 5 gallon water jugs
2 camelbacks
Sunscreen
Large Tarp
Lantern
CAmi netting
Toilet paper
Tickets


Now my best freind, Mattt Roberts, is supposed to be sending me some extra supplies and I can't tell you how much that means to me.  Another short entry ,but here it is.Laters......

100 And A Wake Up........

So much time from now till then and yet so little.  I know the months are going to float by, but I still have to have my eldest son with me for the summer which doesn't happen till the end of June till Mid Aug before I go and that's a long time. 

Funny how time speeds up as you get older.  My theory is that is speeds up because you have experienced more time.  The more you experience, the more you can "space off" for a lack of a better phrasing.

Well, we are in a lull in our planning and art work.  Although Brandy and I have practiced quite a bit of music together.  I think we will at least have 5 or 6 songs ready for when we finally go.

Well what do we do in this instance?  What do we write?  My wife has produced several files of writing of mine from when I was younger.  My writing was terrible!  Should I try to recast the writings in this blog?  Should I attempt to make them mature?  We'll see....

In the meantime..

104 And A Wake Up.....

Where have I been?  Man!  I feel weird!  Especially since I'm not in Austin.  ; )  Can't leave this empty.  Gotta keep typing. 

Brandy and I spent several hours practicing an Incubus song, "More Than Words".  I think we mad e some good progress. 

I got Brandy her Mother's Day and Birhtday gift.  She has been asking for a camcorder forever.  Not fancy, but I got her one.  Man!  My tummy feels funny!!  Ech!  We also got the cami-netting, the 2nd camelback, the 1st aid kit, some moonbeams and a tarp.

This is worth a watch.  Keep an eye on this kid.  Like THOSE words haven't been spoken thousands of times before!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch#!v=73zj6ETDy5I&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GO5OpwLFhgc

113 And A Wake Up......

U shouls read this:


http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jay-michaelson/the-truth-about-burning-m_b_279464.html

It's a not so flattering article about Burning Man from 1999, but I didn't want people to think I was not looking at all points of view.

115 aND A wAKE uP..........

I have sin in my heart.  
That comes from fear. 
Fear has consumed me
And driven me mad. 
Materialism is life
For America

A steady job,
Is my great reward.
What of my hopes?
What of my dreams?
What of my Family?
Is it what it seems?

To err is human,
But that leaf has grown,
Into a forest,
Of heartaches unknown.
Where do I purchase,
My personal home?

Where are the friends?
Where are the lights?
Where are the butterflies,
That start the night?
How did this come?
Where do I go?
My time has come,
It's time to go.

My brother has heard me if I tell him.  This is our perception of a dream gone by.  One day we will wake to fall asleep again, but in the end, we cannot imagine, the game we've been in.

116 And a Wake Up.......

Here we are.  The Axis has moved against me and is actively seeking my ouster.  The diffu\icult part is the one seeking my ouster is my neighbor.  How do you love your neighbor when they smile to your face and stab you in the back?

What do you do when they swear that they will talk to you face to face if they ever have any issues, but go behind your back and over your head and try to find things to get you in trouble?

What will be, will be. He knows what's coming, not me.  Best to leave things in His hands.

Greg had unexpected expenses and cannot finish unitl NEXT Tuesday, but that happens to everybody and he's commit $600 non-refundable to the purchase of the scooter and the tickets have been bought so I guess that we really have time to spare.  Need to close the gap tho.  I haven't been smoking much for the last week and 1/2.  Perhaps 10 cigarrets (mostly 1/2's) all told.  I want it to stick.  The beer is really nice and relaxin\g though when I can keep it to 3 or less.

Laters!

117 And A Wake Up....

Dear Lord!  This is a job!  I want to write more, but I gotta go to bed, cause I gotta work & I have to spend time with the family.  Thank GOD for Burning Man!  How else will we get a break??

Stay tuned.  Laters!!

119 And A Wake Up.....

Whew! A Lot going on.  We got a camelback today.  That's a portable water jug you wear like a backpack.  Holds about a gallons of water.  We also got a military pup tent and priced some other items.  Sorry.  Still been recovering, so I expect to be back into full swing in the next day or so.  Been sleeping a LOT.  Laters!

122 And A Wake Up......

Here's another good youtube linek:

http://www.youtube.com/watch#!v=QF6aT6t-8Og&feature=fvw

123 And A Wake Up.....

Feeling a ton better today.  As can be expected, the unexpected happened to the gentleman buying my scooter and we will have to wait to finishing selling the scooter till next Tues.  We'll get the supplies all at once. per the list in the previous blog.

Worked on another gourd.  It's fun making these things.  We should get some florescent paint to go crazy on the gourds and some different size dremmil bots to vary the designs up.  We are stamping each one "Burning Man '10" for people to keep as momentoes. 

Perhap a little thoughtfulness?\:

7/9/09
This Momen'ts Coming  (blues song)

I feel it flutter,
Destiny,
She spreads her wings.

Tired of tha' gutter,
Movin'
On to better things.

Only a moment,
Is
All that it waits.

Its time to foment,
Baby,
All tha "to lates".

When she fly
It's,.
All to far gone.

After all tha tryin',
It's,
All, All, All, gone wrong.

Don't let it,
Fly, fly fly,
Away Baby.

Comin on to strong.

U gotta woo,
Her,
With words.

U gotta xplain
It
In your verse.

U gotta spin,
SPIN
That woman round.

U gotta show,
Show,show SHOW,
It in tha works.

When u ain't,
Got it,
Tha purse.

U gotta,
U gotta,
U gotta, TURN THAT WOMAN ROUND.

Play it boys...

It don't matter,
iIt's a hard life,
IOt don't matter,
Tha HEAT WAS BEATAIN DOWN!

It's a life,
That's,
Been rife,

With Heartache and Pain.

127 & 126 and A Wake Up.......

Well, surgery is over.  Not the best time, having a mouth full of blood all day.  Definately let's you know your alive.  Although there are better ways I can think of spending my Friday afternnon and the ensuing weekend.

Check this site out:

http://www.elbestbuy.com/

And this video, if I haven't already linked it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSEXKwaTfh0

This is where you want to go if you don't want to have to mess with luggin TONS of one use glow sticks that you will have to track of and lug out again.

Yes, I will be a man of few words for the next few days.  Literally.  Figuratively.  Will give you ton's on info when I recover.  Laters!

128 And a Wake Up.......

Short and Sweet.  Brandy worked with her dremmil on a gourd.  I was high on pain killers all day at work.  Makes it hard to work in my line of work.  Have oral surgery at noon tomorrow.    Laters!

129 And a Wake Up.....

Funny, my math was off.  My case in point for majoring in history and minoring in anthropology and sociology.

We sent off for our tickets today.  Today the trip is REAL.  It will be even better when the tickets ARE IN HAND! : )  Been short laetly on my blogs.  Been in pain and/or doped up till my oral surgery this Fri. FIVE TEETH he his pulling.  OMG.  If I could feint, I would.  Seriously scared oif anjything oral done in my mouth.

At least Brandy has gotten excited and is plotting and planning things.  After I heal from the surgery, there will be a lot more detail.  Plus, Brandy is giving me crap about doing my blog so late.  Not sure when else I'm supposed to.  Oh well, happy wife, happy life.  Or so they say.  Sorry 'bout that. Laters!! 

141 and a Wake Up....

Tomorrow we buy our tickets!!!!

Otherwise, the wifey has commanded that I go to bed with her now, so.....laters!!!!

142 And A Wake Up......

This one is a bit more personal.  Never been a Burner before so I can't rightly say that this is a Burner entry.  I have done some thinking.  A sometimes dangerous occupation in life, I know.

I'm right where I need to be.  Doing just what I need to be doing and learning what I need to learn.  God is all-knowing an knows my heart better than anyone.  He knows how to make me what He wants better than anyone.  He gives me chance after chance.  He drives me before Him.  Knowing that I will fall into the path He set out once I've learned what He wants me to learn.  All I have to do is listen. 

Hardest thing on the earth for me.  Listening.  I'm not very good at it.  I'm to busy being distracted.  Listening to my own thoughts.  When I do that I do not relax.  I project things I don't mean to.  The people around me and my family pick-up on things I don't mean to say.  While I quietly reassure myself that "they know better".  The only way they will know better is if I show them.  I need to do what needs doing and stop thinking about it.  He has trained me enough to know how to do it and in what ways. 

Time to take the training.  Time to let it sink in and stick.  I'm like a child who refuses to grow up, but wants to be treated like a grown up at the same time.  Can't have it both ways.  I know how to put on my shoes.  I need to stop asking God to do it for me.  Life is what we let God make of it.  Life is only worth living when we do that.  God's understanding is beyond ours and His plan is greater than ours.  There's only been one man who walked His path the right way and we killed him for it.  Now, thousands of years later, we act like we know who he was and what God was saying to us through Him.  Best to just get close to God and not let go.  That's what he was ultimately telling us.  Get close and don't let go.  He will tell us what He wants.  We will know what the right things to do are if we do.  At home, at work, and in the world.

He's giving me a leg up with this surgery.  My own private catharsis just to get past some bad habits and grow.  I'll make sure I don't let go of the life rope this time.  It's to lonely out here otherwise.  Thanks God.  Thank you Brandy.  Thank you Mom and everyone else who puts up with me.  May God put me to good use in life doing His will in the way that He fashioned me to.  He made me specific for the job.  I better listen.  I better be myself for Him.  I better let Him be himself through me.  Good night and Laters!!!

And....

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